Oh GOD, I really really can't help this feeling anymore.
I was just going to the kitchen, and the next minute I found myself cry on the floor with no reason. I just don't know how to say this clearly. But, then I realized the reason why I was crying. It's because I remembered when we (me and him) were eat together, and then laughing for many reasons, tell the stories about how's our day and did many things together, not separate like now.
All I can say now is I really really miss him. I wanted to call him, but I can't. He didn't reply my messages today, so maybe he didn't want to be disturbed by me.
So, all I can do is writing this pathethic story and then going to eat my food absolutely with tears in my eyes.
Please help me GOD. Help me through this situation. Please keep my heart calm.